227 - Books to read

[number_eight]

There's not much to read onboard a Cylon Baseship, not like there was back on Caprica

which wasn't real

Or on Galactica, unless you went to Adama's quarters.

you shot him

The only thing here is projecting. I project and visualize different things, things that remind me of better times, since most of the Cylons don't want to have anything to do with me after New Caprica and the mess with Hera. I feel alone a lot of the time – I've tried to embrace my Cylon nature since it's all I have, but after my last resurrection, the other Eight models didn't want to have much to do with me. Same with the Sixes.

And then, he found me. Cavil.

He told me that I was still a hero to the Cylons, that I was still important.

that I was still worthy of love, no matter what happened with Galen and Cally

It started off as something so innocent. He'd watch me dance. But then he started talking to me and telling me about how the different models were splintering apart. He needed me. That was a first. He needed me. I hadn't felt any sort of connection like that since Galen back on Galactica. I loved him, but he didn't need me. I was the one who needed him, and I realize that now.

you need Cavil, you're just lying to yourself

I needed Galen to make me feel safe and secure. But Cavil needs me for important reasons, like the future of the Cylons.

a future you never believed in before

All I want is to fit in. There's nothing else to do on this frakking ship, and so after my vote, I thought things would get better. But now we're killing my "sisters". My swing vote meant nothing, and so now they're all going to die – does that mean I'll be the last one left?

other than Athena of course

Does it matter? He told me it didn't because we don't have souls. We're just machines, and machines don't have souls. Does that make it right to kill them?

you already know the answer to that

At least I still have Cavil. He cares about me. Even if I have nothing else on this ship, no other sister-Cylons, nothing to occupy my time, at least I have him. And he cares about me.

liar


Muse: Sharon "Boomer" Valerii
Fandom: Misc. TV/"Battlestar Galactica"
Word Count: 397