234 - Utopia

[number_eight]

I thought that it was perfect. God had planned it all along and our paths would cross. Karl was even talking to me like I was Athena. I could be Athena for him, after all. I had accessed all of her memories after she had downloaded the last time and I knew, I felt everything that she had. I hurt from the time that President Roslin had taken my her child away. I suffered when she had during her captivity. Most importantly, she was the reason I had bothered to look up her memories, anyway.

She was the famous Athena. The one who had said, "no". She was the reason that all of the Eights sided with the Twos and the Sixes, that we allowed Natalie to lead us into rebellion. Now, Natalie is dead and all we have left is our goal to unbox the Threes and destroy the Hub. Then, we'll be on an even playing field. Permanent death, with our Cylon brothers and sisters reunited.

It's a perfect plan, even if it's not mine. The plan to actually destroy the Hub came out of a discussion with my Athena's husband, Karl. The man looked… tired. It was my chance, I'd hoped, to extend some trust and faith and love to him. Just a massage. Nothing more.

[Locked from Helo]

It could be more. I could be her for him and he wouldn't know the difference. I look like her, feel the same feelings, love him the same way. Her memories are mine and now I don't want to even bother trying to separate the two. I just want to kiss him.

He can lead the humans, I'll lead the Cylons, and it'll be perfect. Hell, when I yelled at the humans about their grumbling and invoked Athena's name, even they turned and listened to me! It would work.

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As we left with D'Anna, he paused to look at all of the other Eights, waiting. I know what he was thinking. That if I Athena dies, he'll be alone. But it's better this way. We're human now, just like him.

But he took her away from me. D'Anna. He didn't trust me the way that I loved trusted him. So my whole plan of my perfect meeting with Karl Agathon failed, as so many of the plans of the other Eights. Like Boomer's plan with New Caprica, or our whole line's plan of trying to follow Athena instead of Natalie, only to have her shun us.

I suppose only God is the one who knows the real reason behind all of His plans, and I shouldn't have tried to interfere. I just wish that I hadn't been punished for it.

[Locked]

I just wish that Karl would have loved me the way I love him.

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Name: Number Eight/Sharon (Basestar version)
Fandom: Misc. TV/"Battlestar Galactica"
Word Count: 469