number_eight | 190 - You’ve temporarily turned into a child, what do you do?

I'd run around and play.

Really, there's not much else I'd want to do. Cylons don't get a childhood; one is just made up for us. I wouldn't want to kiss a boy, or bond with my parents, or anything like that. It would all be fake and then when I came back to reality, I would only hurt more than I already am hurting.

If I could just run around and play, though, on Troy? Or even better, just leave the colony altogether and go to Caprica where the cityscapes were beautiful? I'd walk around the parks. Maybe do a few somersaults.

I'd be sure not to interact with other humans, though. Let the other children play, unknowing of their fate. I'd just run in the sun, basking in it before I ended up trapped on a ship with eternal darkness and stars as my only friends.

Trust me, that's the only way I would want it. Who would want to be a child on a Cylon Baseship? We already had Hera on ours, and that was terrible enough. She didn't belong there. She cried and didn't even want me. Cylons should never have children, let alone be allowed to "become" children.

God's will is that we adapt, and damn it, I've done my best to do that. Which is why if I had a choice in the matter at all? I would be exactly who I am, where I am. I'd prefer the fake memories to ones that gave me hope when there is nothing left to hope for.

So frak all of that. I wouldn't run around and play. I'd just be me. End of story.

Muse : Sharon "Boomer" Valerii
Fandom : Misc. TV/"Battlestar Galactica"
Word Count : 279