206 - What do you live for?

[number_eight]

They've got a collar on my neck and bring me in and out of a cell whenever they feel like it. They ask me questions, expecting me to have every single frakking answer. They use my unborn daughter to save the life of a woman who already threatened to kill me once.

You'd think I wouldn't have anything much to live for at all, considering, but I do. I live for Helo. I love him, even though no one else believes me. He believes me, and that's the most important thing. I live for my daughter, because I can't wait to see her born.

You want to join them and question me, hook me up to Galactica so that I can save your sorry asses, ask me about the Hybrids? Pull me in and out of that damn frakking cell? Sure. No problem. Just let me talk to Helo on the phone, place my hand against the glass partition, and hear him tell me that he loves me, too. You want to let that man try and rape me and then go after both Helo and Chief for saving my life? Fine. Just as long as my daughter gets a chance to be born and both men get a decent trial. They won't. I know they won't. Why do you care about this new crew? They're horrible humans, all of them. And you wonder why the Cylons hate you.

I live for the hope that everyone who has hurt me or lied to me will somehow just leave me the frak alone and let me hold my daughter when she's born. And that maybe, maybe, Helo will be alive and still in love with me so that we can share it together.

Muse : Sharon Agathon, née Valerii
Fandom : Misc. TV/"Battlestar Galactica"
Word Count : 292

Comments

[callsign-helo.livejournal.com]

We'll make it through, baby. You can hold on, and Tyrol and I will be fine, and we can hold on until the right people wake up and let us be.

[number-eight.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I'll... I'll just keep remembering that. I love you. You know that, right? You believe me. You're the only one who does.

[callsign-helo.livejournal.com]

I know it, Sharon. I love you, too.

[arrow-of-apollo.livejournal.com]

The fleet needs the firepower and resources that Pegasus provides. As for her people, we're trying to hope they're not all Cain's creatures.

[number-eight.livejournal.com]

Well, I guess we'll just have to wait and see, Commander. Next time someone tries to kill you for no reason at all, you just let me know.

[arrow-of-apollo.livejournal.com]

The house is being cleaned, I promise you that. I can't undo what's been done, but those people are gone.

[number-eight.livejournal.com]

No one can undo what's been done. Are you telling me that you actually care what happens or doesn't happen to a toaster like me?

[arrow-of-apollo.livejournal.com]

What happened to you was appalling and unacceptable. If Thorne had survived and I had anything to say about it, he would have had hell to pay. The same goes for what Cain did to Helo and Chief.

[number-eight.livejournal.com]

Yet you still don't trust me.

[arrow-of-apollo.livejournal.com]

You're still a Cylon. But I don't have to trust you to believe you shouldn't be treated like that.

[number-eight.livejournal.com]

Yes, I'm a Cylon. And you don't trust me. I would assume you would have been pleased to see me hurt like that. Why not?

[arrow-of-apollo.livejournal.com]

Just because I don't trust you doesn't mean I have to hate you as well.

[number-eight.livejournal.com]

You hated me when you first saw me.

[arrow-of-apollo.livejournal.com]

Well, 'you' had just shot my father. I know it wasn't you, but just seeing the same face... I couldn't handle it.

[number-eight.livejournal.com]

So, have you gotten over it yet?

[arrow-of-apollo.livejournal.com]

That much I have.

[number-eight.livejournal.com]

What else do I have to do to prove to you that I'm just as human as the rest of you?

[arrow-of-apollo.livejournal.com]

You can't. You're not. But you seem to be getting more and more of the Admiral's trust every day, and that's saying something.

[number-eight.livejournal.com]

I am human. Get that through your head. I'm just a different sort of human. God, how many times have I saved your asses?

[arrow-of-apollo.livejournal.com]

What you have or haven't done isn't the point here. It's just the truth. You can't be not a Cylon any more than I can be not an Adama.

[number-eight.livejournal.com]

Fine, so I'm a frakking toaster, then. Why don't you just shoot me and get it over with?

[arrow-of-apollo.livejournal.com]

Because I'm not the one seeing everything in black and white here.

[number-eight.livejournal.com]

Right.

[arrow-of-apollo.livejournal.com]

If you can't accept that I can think of you as a Cylon and also not as an object of hate, that's not my problem.

[number-eight.livejournal.com]

Then what do you think of me as?

[arrow-of-apollo.livejournal.com]

I don't know. I don't think I know you well enough to have an answer for that.

[number-eight.livejournal.com]

Then maybe you should try.

[arrow-of-apollo.livejournal.com]

Try what? Having an answer? Getting to know you?

[number-eight.livejournal.com]

Both?

[arrow-of-apollo.livejournal.com]

We'll see.

[dirty-cally.livejournal.com]

Those guys were frakking animals. Too bad Chief and Helo didn't kick them where it hurts a few times.

They're not all like that, though. Some of them, like Chief Laird, are victims, too. I'm just glad we weren't all driven to that kind of frakking insanity.

OOC: OMG! *hugs* I was starting to worry, hearing about the latest round of wildfires in CA and forcibly restraining myself from emailing you to make sure you and yours were all right. Thank God!

[number-eight.livejournal.com]

I wish they could have all died...

Look, I don't care what people are saying about this new crew. I'm still in jail. My daughter is going to be born in this cell. And the man I love might not live, yet I'm supposed to help everyone onboard this ship whenever the next "Cylon menace" shows up? I don't think so.

OOC: Oh, yes, we're fine! Nowhere near the newest batch of them.

[dirty-cally.livejournal.com]

I was glad when the man who tried to attack me died, so I guess I can sort of understand how you feel.

Don't worry about Helo. The commander won't let anything happen to them and I think he knows what happened to the civilian fleet that was with the Pegasus. They'll be fine. They will be. I know they will.

OOC: I'm so glad you're okay!

[number-eight.livejournal.com]

Nice to know that you're so optimistic. I won't hold my breath.

[cpo-galen-tyrol.livejournal.com]

I know you're pissed, Sharon, but it wasn't quite as bad over there as it looked. It was bad, but there were some people over there who were just doing whatever it took to survive. There's a lot of traumatized people over there, who used to be civilians and got terrorized and bullied into joining up drafted.

You're kidding, right? Then I guess you're the same as all those other Cylons who nuked the hell out of our homeworlds. If we're all the same, then you're all the same, too. *sigh* I don't mean that. Getting smacked around by the good old boys got me good and pissed, too.

And then I get back to find out my Blackbird's been to hades and back. I hope Helo had a better homecoming than I did.

[number-eight.livejournal.com]

I don't need to know what it was like over there. I don't care who was hurt, or abused, or anything. I live for my daughter and for Helo, and knowing that you are alive. I don't want to have anything to do with that other ship. Ever.

I'm not kidding. They're terrible people; look how they treated me! How they treated you and Helo!

Pegasus should never have found us.