18.B.2 You have a free pass from the gods, a one time "get out of jail free" card.

[number_eight]

You have a free pass from the gods, a one time "get out of jail free" card. You can do one thing, one horrible or evil thing, and not only will you not be punished, but no one will know it was you. Will you take it?

[Locked to arrow_of_apollo]

If there was a way that I could be with you somehow, in some way, where Helo and Hera would never know about it? Where I could frak you in public if I wanted, where I could tell you how I feel... where I could be honest with everyone on this planet about you and me? And I wouldn't get in trouble, no one would be hurt, our lives would be back to "normal" the next day?

I'd do it.

I shouldn't. I shouldn't want to, either, I should want to do the right thing but God, I am tired of always doing the right thing. Can't I do something selfish for once? Can't I stop thinking about my family and just think like Kara? Be like Kara and grab what I want? I want you. I don't know why. I don't even know what we are, Lee, but I want to stop hiding it.

I want to stop lying to my family, or having you lie to yours.

I want... us. Whatever "us" means. I want to look the Old Man in the eyes and tell him that his son has been frakking a toaster for a long time now, and watch him laugh at it.

It can't happen, though, can it? It's just hopes and dreams, and even though we're here on Earth and we're all starting over, not all of us can truly start over.

Can we?

Muse: Sharon "Athena" Agathon
Fandom: Misc. TV/"Battlestar Galactica"
Word Count: 244
OOC Note: The Helo referred to is callsign_helo and is part of an ongoing AU RP.

Comments

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[arrow-of-apollo.livejournal.com]

I'd choose the same.

And... I don't know.

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[number-eight.livejournal.com]

You would?

Glad to know we're both confused, then.

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[arrow-of-apollo.livejournal.com]

Yes. I'm getting exhausted from the lying.

I guess so.