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arrow_of_apollo & burnandrave]
Myself, obviously.
No, that’s not true. It's a little of both.
I've lied to myself first and foremost in terms of how I've felt about Lee. All the times that we frakked and I'd tell myself that no, that's all it was, it was frakking and so it didn't mean anything, I was wrong. If it didn't mean anything, then I would've been able to stop it a long time ago. If it didn't mean anything, then I wouldn't have felt so guilty every time that I held Hera in my arms or made love to my husband.
Karl deserves better than me, but I'm selfish. I don't want to give up the love I have with him on the chance that whatever it is that I have with Lee might be, well, something.
But I've been a great liar to my friends, too.
I'm sorry, Kara. I'm sorry that all this time I've lied to you, too. How can you have this relationship with Sam and Leoben that works like this? I don't get it. I don't, because I'm jealous. Who would have thought that of the two of us, you'd have the working, happy relationship and I'd be the one who was lying to everyone? I'm jealous that you know what you want and you're not afraid of telling people anymore.
I don't know what I want. No, that's another lie.
I want you, Lee. But I don't love you and that is what is frakking up my head right now. You ruined my life. I let you ruin my life because it was what we both wanted. Wants, needs, desires, but never common sense.
Kara, please don't tell Karl. I know your pretty much his best friend and you guys go way back, but please don't. I don't have the life you have, and I never will.
And Lee? Go home to Dualla. She's better for you than some Cylon who is still lying to herself.
Muse: Sharon "Athena" Agathon
Fandom: Misc. TV/"Battlestar Galactica"
Word Count: 336
OOC Note: This version of Sharon is from the AU!Earth verse and is not canon. The Helo referred to iscallsign_helo, the Leoben is cylon_prophet, and the Sam is notmyfate. This prompt response takes place after an RP that is not yet finished between Lee, Kara, Sharon, Leoben, & Sam.
arrow_of_apollo & burnandrave]Myself, obviously.
No, that’s not true. It's a little of both.
I've lied to myself first and foremost in terms of how I've felt about Lee. All the times that we frakked and I'd tell myself that no, that's all it was, it was frakking and so it didn't mean anything, I was wrong. If it didn't mean anything, then I would've been able to stop it a long time ago. If it didn't mean anything, then I wouldn't have felt so guilty every time that I held Hera in my arms or made love to my husband.
Karl deserves better than me, but I'm selfish. I don't want to give up the love I have with him on the chance that whatever it is that I have with Lee might be, well, something.
But I've been a great liar to my friends, too.
I'm sorry, Kara. I'm sorry that all this time I've lied to you, too. How can you have this relationship with Sam and Leoben that works like this? I don't get it. I don't, because I'm jealous. Who would have thought that of the two of us, you'd have the working, happy relationship and I'd be the one who was lying to everyone? I'm jealous that you know what you want and you're not afraid of telling people anymore.
I don't know what I want. No, that's another lie.
I want you, Lee. But I don't love you and that is what is frakking up my head right now. You ruined my life. I let you ruin my life because it was what we both wanted. Wants, needs, desires, but never common sense.
Kara, please don't tell Karl. I know your pretty much his best friend and you guys go way back, but please don't. I don't have the life you have, and I never will.
And Lee? Go home to Dualla. She's better for you than some Cylon who is still lying to herself.
Muse: Sharon "Athena" Agathon
Fandom: Misc. TV/"Battlestar Galactica"
Word Count: 336
OOC Note: This version of Sharon is from the AU!Earth verse and is not canon. The Helo referred to is
callsign_helo, the Leoben is cylon_prophet, and the Sam is notmyfate. This prompt response takes place after an RP that is not yet finished between Lee, Kara, Sharon, Leoben, & Sam.
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[locked to Kara]
Date: 2008-10-10 06:40 pm (UTC)I didn't have the same problems you did about Sam, and he didn't have delusional feelings about me, either. He would talk to me in bed about you sometimes.Maybe.
OOC: Okay, sounds good! And sorry this is so late again. It's been a bad week. :(
Re: [locked to Kara]
Date: 2008-10-10 06:44 pm (UTC)Gods. That's frakked up. I'm glad we're not really talking about this because I don't know what to say, and I'd probably go hit him.::shrugs:: Do what you want. I'm just saying, he's better than me at talking. Which is really annoying most of the time, but. There you go.
OOC: ::hugs you a lot:: You poor thing! Let me know if I can do anything, k? Never worry about this RP stuff, it's all good with me :D