Locked from President Roslin
Dec. 27th, 2006 12:06 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
She lied. She frakking lied to me. To Helo. To Admiral Adama! She used us all in some little game of hers. Damn it! I knew Doc Cottle was lying when he'd said Hera's lungs weren't fully developed. I'd thought she was dead, though, and that they'd all contrived to murder my daughter.
No. It was so much worse than that.
President Roslin stole my daughter from me and let another woman raise her for over a year, and now? Now thanks to her, Hera is in the hands of the Cylons.
I'm going to find her. I sincerely doubt that the Admiral will stop me, either. He looked as angry as I felt when he told me the news.
Journal Entry of Sharon "Athena" Agathon
Locked to Sharon
Date: 2006-12-28 02:21 pm (UTC)Hera's the key to the future, and that future being reared by a Cylon scared Roslin. You're daughter is half human...but it's the other half, the half that's not like them that makes even the most respectable people do the most irrational things.
Which hurt more? Believing that your daughter was dead or finding out that she's alive but you've been prematurely labeled an inadequate mother because of what you are?
[OOC: he insisted on interfering, but feel free to ignore him, really.]
Locked to Leoben
Date: 2006-12-29 05:39 am (UTC)President Roslin was scared? Yeah. Yeah, you're probably right and the fact that I'm agreeing with you scares the hell out of me.
It all hurt, because in my heart when I believed she was dead, I believed she was murdered for the same reason she was simply taken from me -- because I'm a Cylon. And how dare you insinuate anything about my abilities as a mother! President Roslin and the Cylons all want her for their own purposes, but I'm the only one who wants her simply because she's my daughter.
Re: Locked to Sharon
Date: 2006-12-29 01:14 pm (UTC)Yes, well, I'm surprisingly agreeable. You know, for a toaster.
I didn't take her from you, so how is it that I'm the one insinuating anything? Roslin made that call all by herself, I'm just stating the facts. You might not like them, but that's what they are. Facts.
Locked to Leoben
Date: 2006-12-30 06:19 am (UTC)President Roslin made the call, but you have Hera. Aren't you saying that I'm not a good enough mother simply by keeping her from me?
Re: Locked to Sharon
Date: 2007-01-02 01:04 am (UTC)You could be with her, here, but her with them isn't an option.
Locked to Leoben
Date: 2007-01-02 08:20 am (UTC)I don't believe you at all.
Re: Locked to Sharon
Date: 2007-01-02 03:03 pm (UTC)Locked to Leoben
Date: 2007-01-03 08:14 pm (UTC)Re: Locked to Sharon
Date: 2007-01-03 09:57 pm (UTC)Locked to Leoben
Date: 2007-01-03 10:05 pm (UTC)Out of morbid curiosity, what exactly do you think I am?
Re: Locked to Sharon
Date: 2007-01-03 10:29 pm (UTC)Proof that we're not just a bunch of pre-programmed responses and imitated emotions, that we're capable of feeling love, being in love and giving it in return. Proof that the war doesn't have to go on forever because coexistence is possible.
Locked to Leoben
Date: 2007-01-04 08:48 am (UTC)Re: Locked to Sharon
Date: 2007-01-04 01:58 pm (UTC)Who said being the archetype was going to be easy? Maybe it isn't a role you chose and it chose you instead, but the point is it's a role you have, like it or not and I don't think your hardships are in vain.
Locked to Leoben
Date: 2007-01-04 10:44 pm (UTC)My hardships are not part of God's plan.
Re: Locked to Sharon
Date: 2007-01-05 12:10 am (UTC)They're for nothing, then? Kind of a dismal outlook on things, don't you think?
Locked to Leoben
Date: 2007-01-06 09:14 am (UTC)Maybe. Probably.
It's the only way I can reason that God would allow something like this to happen.Re: Locked to Sharon
Date: 2007-01-09 02:20 am (UTC)Hmm.
Maybe your reasoning skills need some altering.Locked to Leoben
Date: 2007-01-09 08:53 am (UTC)I'm not going to be altered in any way. I'm fine, as imperfect as I might be right now.no subject
Date: 2006-12-28 08:40 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-12-29 05:30 am (UTC)He confronted the President who told him the truth. She lied to him, as well.
She lied to us all. And when we went back to New Caprica to save our people, Hera was found by the Cylons and they have her. They frakking have her.
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Date: 2006-12-29 05:47 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-12-29 05:49 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-12-30 05:39 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-12-30 05:41 am (UTC)[Locked]
Are you implying anyone I know?
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Date: 2006-12-30 06:20 am (UTC)[Locked]
Kara. Roslin. Tigh. Hell, even Chief.
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Date: 2006-12-30 06:29 am (UTC)Then again, they could have been avoiding me because I look like the Eights on New Caprica.We lost a Battlestar saving them. There were losses on our side, too. I willingly went down to the planet to help out, and...
[Locked]
Kara's... she's trying to get back to herself. President Roslin, yes. Sam told me a little of Colonel Tigh.
Chief? He won't talk to me, but... God it feels like everything we knew and trusted is gone now.
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Date: 2006-12-30 06:56 am (UTC)[Locked]
This is priveleged information, but... they held secret courts. They used them as excuses to execute collaborators.
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Date: 2006-12-30 07:19 am (UTC)That aside, it wasn't as if life was perfect for us, either. Especially after we Jumped away.
[Locked]
What? You've got to be kidding me. No, no, I know you're not. Frak, I just can't believe all of this has happened.
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Date: 2006-12-30 09:04 pm (UTC)[Locked]
Believe it. Maybe the Dance helped out a lot of that, but I don't know if it cured everything.
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Date: 2006-12-30 09:17 pm (UTC)since I didn't get out much.You put on a little weight, though. *grin* Sir.
[Locked]
I don't even want to know who was a part of it and who wasn't. I'd rather not know. And, no, it didn't cure much of anything, I think, except maybe a few personal issues.
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Date: 2006-12-30 10:10 pm (UTC)And thanks in part to your husband, that's a thing of the past, thank Gods.
[Locked]
So say we all.
no subject
Date: 2006-12-31 07:36 pm (UTC)Do you truly believe that?
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Date: 2006-12-31 09:17 pm (UTC)It's easier, I think, to believe that than to believe she's alive out there, somewhere, and scared. Scared and alone and... Sir, why would President Roslin do this?
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Date: 2006-12-31 10:32 pm (UTC)His eyes darken as he considers ... and remembers.
You know that, not long before Hera's death was faked, we had to deal with a hostage situation shortly after the fleet learned of your existence. We lost lives rather than hand you over to terrorists. It was only a matter of time before the fleet--and any Cylons planted in the fleet--learned about your daughter.
I suspect that President Roslin believed that secrecy was the best way to keep Hera out of the hands of both the Cylons and vengeful humans, without risking more lives.
I don't say that I agree with her decision, but I do believe she was trying to do the right thing. Or at least a right thing.
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Date: 2007-01-02 08:15 am (UTC)She looks down, thinking of the anger that was there and the hurt, all because of her... only it wasn't her. It was Valerii, but it was another time where it didn't matter. She didn't matter.
I remember.
Fine, let's say you're right and that she was trying to "save" us. Why didn't she tell you? You of all people as the leader of the fleet have a right to know.
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Date: 2007-01-04 03:04 am (UTC)She didn't tell me because she knew that the truth would force a choice on me. I would have had to either contravene the wishes of my Commander in Chief, or lie outright to one of my officers.
His lips twist into something that would be a wry smile, if it wasn't so tinged with frustration.
She chose ... to avoid putting me in that dilemma.
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Date: 2007-01-04 08:55 am (UTC)What about free will? Shouldn't you have been the one to make that decision instead of having it made for you? She can't claim that this is all part of something in the Scrolls of Pythia this time.
You're the one who said it before, Admiral. We're a family. And this is no way to treat the people that you care about.
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Date: 2007-01-05 02:08 am (UTC)A faint sigh, then his eyes grow stern
We're the guardians of the last remnants of the human race, Athena. The President and I must place that consideration before all else, in every decision we make. Yes, it's hard on those around us when we err on the side of caution, but if we ever even once err on the side of carelessness--
He stops abruptly, jaw tightening.
We saw on New Caprica what happens when we make that kind of error. As I told you all at The Dance, that can't happen again.
Because if it does ... it's over.
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Date: 2007-01-06 09:28 am (UTC)She stands a little taller, her chin up a notch as he speaks.
It won't happen again. It won't, I promise you. I think I can safely speak for everyone who was there that night and say that it won't happen again. We won't be careless, but we can't be thoughtless, either. If we think that we can control lives, lie, manipulate...
She pauses before she continues, a little quieter.
... Then we are no better than the Cylons.
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Date: 2007-01-07 03:37 am (UTC)So what remains is finding the right opportunity ... to get her back.
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Date: 2007-01-07 09:19 am (UTC)Yes, sir.