Locked from President Roslin

[number_eight]

She lied. She frakking lied to me. To Helo. To Admiral Adama! She used us all in some little game of hers. Damn it! I knew Doc Cottle was lying when he'd said Hera's lungs weren't fully developed. I'd thought she was dead, though, and that they'd all contrived to murder my daughter.

No. It was so much worse than that.

President Roslin stole my daughter from me and let another woman raise her for over a year, and now? Now thanks to her, Hera is in the hands of the Cylons.

I'm going to find her. I sincerely doubt that the Admiral will stop me, either. He looked as angry as I felt when he told me the news.


Journal Entry of Sharon "Athena" Agathon

Comments

Locked to Sharon

[leobenconoy.livejournal.com]

Fear of the unknown. It's in their nature. Once you come to grips with that, you'll see that there's very little of their behavior left that'll surprise you.

Hera's the key to the future, and that future being reared by a Cylon scared Roslin. You're daughter is half human...but it's the other half, the half that's not like them that makes even the most respectable people do the most irrational things.

Which hurt more? Believing that your daughter was dead or finding out that she's alive but you've been prematurely labeled an inadequate mother because of what you are?

[OOC: he insisted on interfering, but feel free to ignore him, really.]

Locked to Leoben

[number-eight.livejournal.com]

I... I don't want by daughter to be the "key" to anything! I just want her back with me. I want her back with Helo and with me. Period.

President Roslin was scared? Yeah. Yeah, you're probably right and the fact that I'm agreeing with you scares the hell out of me.

It all hurt, because in my heart when I believed she was dead, I believed she was murdered for the same reason she was simply taken from me -- because I'm a Cylon. And how dare you insinuate anything about my abilities as a mother! President Roslin and the Cylons all want her for their own purposes, but I'm the only one who wants her simply because she's my daughter.

Re: Locked to Sharon

[leobenconoy.livejournal.com]

It's destiny. You can't change that. Helo can't change that. No one can.

Yes, well, I'm surprisingly agreeable. You know, for a toaster.

I didn't take her from you, so how is it that I'm the one insinuating anything? Roslin made that call all by herself, I'm just stating the facts. You might not like them, but that's what they are. Facts.

Locked to Leoben

[number-eight.livejournal.com]

Frak destiny. God and all His wisdom didn't save my daughter from President Roslin. That's a year that I don't have, won't ever have, stolen from me. You're trying to tell me that's destiny? If destiny states she is supposed to be with the Cylons, then why couldn't I have her?

President Roslin made the call, but you have Hera. Aren't you saying that I'm not a good enough mother simply by keeping her from me?

Re: Locked to Sharon

[leobenconoy.livejournal.com]

That's not what we're saying at all. We're keeping her from them, Sharon. And, yes, by unfortunate circumstance, that's also kept her from you, but it hasn't been our initial intention.

You could be with her, here, but her with them isn't an option.

Locked to Leoben

[number-eight.livejournal.com]

Are you actually saying that you'd let me stay with you on the baseship and raise my daughter who's half-human, and you wouldn't try to box me?

I don't believe you at all.

Re: Locked to Sharon

[leobenconoy.livejournal.com]

You're one of us, Sharon. Slightly misguided at times, yes, but still. Not only that, you're the reason Hera exists. We wouldn't eliminate her mother. How heartless do you think we are?

Locked to Leoben

[number-eight.livejournal.com]

How stupid do you think I am?

Re: Locked to Sharon

[leobenconoy.livejournal.com]

I think you're a lot of things, but stupid isn't one of them. Right now, though, I'd have to say that paranoid leads the pack.

Locked to Leoben

[number-eight.livejournal.com]

After everything that's happened, I think I have every right to be paranoid.

Out of morbid curiosity, what exactly do you think I am?

Re: Locked to Sharon

[leobenconoy.livejournal.com]

You're proof of what could be.

Proof that we're not just a bunch of pre-programmed responses and imitated emotions, that we're capable of feeling love, being in love and giving it in return. Proof that the war doesn't have to go on forever because coexistence is possible.

Locked to Leoben

[number-eight.livejournal.com]

Three called me a traitor to our race. I fell in love with Helo, with a human, and I disobeyed orders because of that. Yes, we can feel love and we are more than what humans say that we are, but... God, if you really think that I'm different, that I'm "proof", then why have I been called a traitor?

Re: Locked to Sharon

[leobenconoy.livejournal.com]

Three? She's just one model. One that I'm not even sure has the right to pass judgment on anyone as of late. If we can boldly expect to be forgiven by God for our sins, it seems hypocritical not to forgive those who've sinned against us.

Who said being the archetype was going to be easy? Maybe it isn't a role you chose and it chose you instead, but the point is it's a role you have, like it or not and I don't think your hardships are in vain.

Locked to Leoben

[number-eight.livejournal.com]

So you're forgiving me for disobeying orders, or forgiving me for falling in love with a human? Who, exactly, is doing the forgiving? Just you? Like you said, you're just one model.

My hardships are not part of God's plan.

Re: Locked to Sharon

[leobenconoy.livejournal.com]

I am only one, I know that, doesn't mean I'm the only one willing to listen to reason. I just happen to be the one you're talking to at the moment, so all I can do is speak for myself.

They're for nothing, then? Kind of a dismal outlook on things, don't you think?

Locked to Leoben

[number-eight.livejournal.com]

So, what? Are you saying there are other models willing to listen, or just other copies of you?

Maybe. Probably. It's the only way I can reason that God would allow something like this to happen.

Re: Locked to Sharon

[leobenconoy.livejournal.com]

Other models, yes. I'm sure of it.

Hmm. Maybe your reasoning skills need some altering.

Locked to Leoben

[number-eight.livejournal.com]

I'll listen to them if they decide to actually speak to me first.

I'm not going to be altered in any way. I'm fine, as imperfect as I might be right now.